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Gabi didn't arrive in Ellipsa with much. Besides some clothes, all she had to her name when she arrived was some writing materials such as pens, pencils, paper and an old, half-broken typewriter. Along with it, she has a box that she keeps tied closed with a small yellow ribbon. Inside the box are her personal writings, a mix of types and handwritten. What follows are those writings and any progress she manages to make on them during her time in Ellipsa.

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III. Paradis-Marleyan War

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[This part picks up after the Warriors are repelled from Paradis in the Battle of Shinganshina, how the Anti-Marleyan Volunteers helped Paradis advance technologically and attempt diplomatic relations and how they used the Mid-East War to infiltrate Marley, culminating with Willy Tybur's declaration of war and the attack on Liberio that followed.

Gabi has tried writing this section a couple different ways. The first is where she again just tries to neutrally describe the events as they happened in order. The second is where she tries to outline all of the different intersecting plans surrounding the Founding Titan up front and explains how they all played out and played off of each other. By her count, there's four: 1) The Marleyan Military's plan to take the Founding Titan to reassert their waning control as the world's superpower until they could technologically catch up to the rest of the world. 2) The Paradisian Military Junta's plan to use the Founding Titan to cause a limited Rumbling as a demonstration of their power and using that to buy more time to advance technologically and negotiate a longer-lasting peace. 3) Zeke's plan to use the Founding Titan to alter the biology of every Eldian so they can no longer have children, essentially making it so the Eldians and the Titans will go extinct in less than a century, and 4) Eren's plan to use the Founding Titan to use the Rumbling to kill everyone outside of Paradis Island.

The third way she tried to write is almost more autobiographical, going into her own perspective and experiences. This version is extremely self-critical and at times even derails the story being told to rebuke Gabi's mindset and the choices she was making at the time.

All three versions are incomplete, but the second has gotten the furthest.]

Okay...

I'm reading back the third version now and it's just kind of me, yelling at myself a lot. It was really, really easy to write too. There's just uh. Pages and pages of me calling my 12-year old self some pretty mean stuff, here. I kinda got lost in the moment and I see I wrote "fucking idiot" a few more times than is appropriate for this kind of subject matter. It's becoming clear to me that I may have underestimated the degree to which I don't like that version of myself and I should probably talk to somebody about that.

Anyway.

Um. I think the second version works best? I just laid out everybody's plans up front and from there, it feels a lot more straightforward to just. Describe how all of those plans played off of each other. It feels more...honest, I guess, to just say "everybody's lying to everybody else and trying to stab everybody else in the back all the time, and here's who succeeded and who didn't" right at the start.

Hm.

Maybe if I can get out of my own head, I can keep the third version and split it off into its own thing. It'd give me a place to put all of my opinions and the stories about everybody and who they were as people and write a version that's just....me. And us. The more I work on this, the more I think I kinda need that.

Let's try and finish the history version first, though. That's more important.